|—||Bob Marley (via arleneaddicted)|
the reward of living, was your choice of dying
It was not worth fighting, not worthy of trying.
the phone call that shattered my weakening heart
wait, go over this again, explain from the start…
tragedy struck fast, your heart stopped beating
induced by addiction intoxication was defeating
you shouted slander of suffering and pain,
the regular visits to Dr. is what kept you sane.
you wanted for nothing and built beautiful energy
this haunting dependence that stole your integrity.
mother i never had a chance to say good bye
or to tell you I love you as you lifted up into the sky.
no closure is treading uneasy on my spirit,
I showed up to tell you, too late for you to hear it.
theres not a day that passes your not in my head,
in memory of you and how you wound up dead.
can I redo the past, would it bring you back,
its you in my life that i surely lack.
I stretched my skin
To let you in.
You crawled inside my shell.
Your vicious slurs, And hurtful words
I never saw quite well.
Now I can see
You were like a poison to me.
You only polluted my brain.
Your actions screamed, Loud obscenities.
They drove me near insane.
You were in my blood.
You smothered my lungs.
You filled my head with lies.
You made me believe
That you were unique,
But you’re just another guy.